There’s a Dragon Girl in the Desolate Sea: 1067|The ninety-ninth dragon scales (1)

The ninety-ninth dragon scales (1)

Really back.

Fu Dang slowly raised his hands. He hadn't had a human body for a long time. He was about to forget this feeling.

In front of him is a place that is familiar in his memory, but extremely unfamiliar. It is a place he often dreamed of when he was still alive. At that time, he was still young, in his early twenties, starting from scratch, just starting out, walking out of a mountain village The poor boy, little by little, relying on his own efforts to become the richest man in the country, has created an amazing business empire. It can be said that twenty years later, the daily life of the Chinese people is closely related to his group.

But what Fu Dang wanted to go back to was actually when he was 24 years old. This year happened to be 1990. He went through the most difficult period of starting a business. His career gradually improved and he began to stand firm. Heel, while being able to give his family a good life, his wife Jiang Yingxiu became pregnant.

Fu Dang in 1990 was really too busy, he was so busy that he didn't even have time to touch the ground, let alone taking care of his pregnant wife, so he invited his mother over, along with others His sister Fu Xia, he felt that he had no worries, so he worked harder and harder, trying to seize the east wind and rise to the sky in this era of opportunities.

It turns out that he did succeed, and his wife gave birth to a daughter for him.

Fu Dang is a workaholic. He always thinks that he needs to work harder and be more successful in order to be worthy of his wife, who is a native of the capital and is doted on by his parents, but he forgets that his wife is actually It doesn't take much money, and it's too late when he understands that.

When Fu Dang was twenty-six years old, Jiang Yingxiu committed suicide.

Fu Dang at that time, after a brief period of grief and despair, quickly threw himself into work, which numbed his pain. grief, he told himself that he could live the rest of his life without her for decades.

But such sadness, after he became famous, could no longer be ignored.

He is a cowardly man. After his wife's suicide, he didn't have the courage to look directly at her relics. He didn't dare to open those dusty boxes until he was middle-aged, and he didn't know what she was like during the years when he worked hard Loneliness, loneliness, pain.

In the 1990s, there was no such thing as postpartum depression. From outsiders, even from Jiang Yingxiu's biological parents, they felt that she was moaning for nothing - you said that you had a good life. What do you do every day? Although a man is busy, he is busy with his career. You don’t have to do anything, just take your daughter at home, you will have no shortage of food, clothing, housing, and transportation. The best you can use for everything. If you are not satisfied, what kind of emotional mediation do you have? Don't come?

Yes, it hurts to have a baby, but what woman doesn't come here like this? Now that she is a mother, she has to take her own responsibilities, but Jiang Yingxiu is alone every day. She is always sick and can't raise her emotions about anything. If it were decades later, Fu Dang would definitely understand. She suffered from postpartum depression, but in the 1990s, he didn't know anything.

Everyone is accusing Jiang Yingxiu. They don't understand what she is being hypocritical with such a good man, such a good husband's family, and such good parents. Fu Dang loves her so much. The mother took over to take care of her, asked her sister to talk with her, and even hired a nanny, where can I find such a good son-in-law!

Even Jiang Yingxiu's biological parents were very embarrassed. They felt that their daughter was too spoiled, and they criticized education behind their backs.

Everyone thinks that Jiang Yingxiu is too talented, and there are many women out there who are eyeing them. Fu Dang is not only highly educated and capable, he is also very handsome, with means and courage, and he is worth millions at a young age. If Jiang Yingxiu didn't want to be this Mrs. Fu, there would be many people who wanted to replace her!

Everyone is blaming her, and everyone thinks she's wrong.

Jiang Yingxiu was only twenty-four when she died.

It is the most beautiful age of a woman, like a flower that has just bloomed, but before it can be appreciated by others, it withers and dies.

No one thought she would commit suicide, really, because no one could figure out why Jiang Yingxiu committed suicide, how did she not live well? When Fu Dang made money, the first thing she did was to buy her jewelry, buy clothes, change into a beautiful small house, buy a car, and hire a nanny. Why did she commit suicide? Did she forget that she was a mother, and she didn't care about her two-year-old daughter?

No one can understand Jiang Yingxiu's pain. In everyone's eyes, she is just moaning.

Even Fu Dang didn't know why until he finally had the courage to open the box that sealed Jiang Yingxiu's relics after middle age.

For Jiang Yingxiu, she doesn't need luxury houses, famous cars, or flowers and jewelry. She just wants Fu Dang to accompany her more, not to be busy every time she makes a phone call, and not to meet several times a week. . No matter how nice her mother-in-law was to her, she couldn't relax in front of her. She always wanted to cry when she slept alone at night and wanted him to hug her, but he was never there.

He always said that he worked so hard for her, to make them live a better life, but Jiang Yingxiu didn't want it!

She just wants him to spend more time with her. She knows he's busy, but can't she even give her a call? Obviously he was not like this when he was in college. At that time, he worked for living expenses and tuition fees. No matter how busy he was, he would come back to have dinner with her, but since he started his business, the family has become bigger and more luxurious, and more and more deserted.

She didn't even have anyone to tell her, because she married him just after graduation. When her former friends heard her say this, they were always speechless. No matter how Jiang Yingxiu explained it, everyone thought she was showing off.

I told my parents that I also received criticism and reprimands. I felt that she was so squeamish as a little girl. She was still ignorant and did not understand her husband.

Slowly, Jiang Yingxiu said nothing.

And when she realized that she was emotionally wrong and tried to talk to Fu Dang, he was always so busy that he finally got home and fell asleep. No matter how much she had to say, he didn't have time to listen.

It's not the most painful, the most painful is having a baby.

My mother-in-law treated her well, not because of Jiang Yingxiu, but because she was Fu Dang's daughter-in-law, and because she was pregnant with a fat grandson. During her pregnancy, her mother-in-law took care of Jiang Yingxiu's life. You have to obey. After giving birth, Jiang Yingxiu had a difficult birth at first. The doctors all suggested a caesarean section, but her mother-in-law firmly believed that a child born by caesarean section would become stupid, so she asked for a natural birth. Jiang Yingxiu almost spent most of her life in order to give birth to this child!

And having a baby is not the end of the nightmare.

She thinks her life is so bad that she's completely over at this point.

She had persistent lochia and had a terrible stomach pain, but Fu Dang, who was busy with work, did not come to the hospital until she gave birth.

She has no milk, and was forced by her mother and mother-in-law to drink a greasy soup. She vomited, but she still had to drink it. It was really painful when the newborn was breastfeeding, and she couldn't help crying. Speaking out, for the next month, she was not allowed to get out of bed, nor was she allowed to take a shower and wash her hair. Even if she changed into clean clothes, she always smelled of milk.

After finally giving birth, Jiang Yingxiu found that she had unsightly stretch marks on her stomach. In addition, there were also circles of loose fat, which looked disgusting.

When she looked at herself in the full-length mirror, she could hardly recognize the haggard, fat and ugly in the mirror, as if the teenage woman was the famous school girl in the university.

Because she was born a daughter, although her mother-in-law didn't say anything, she was still a little dissatisfied. After all, their family was in a rural area, and their thinking was a little old-fashioned. take care of her daughter.

She changed her baby's diaper while crying. The diaper she pulled down was dirty, smelly and disgusting, but her mother-in-law said that this is your own daughter. How could a mother despise her own child?

This child is very difficult to take care of. He cried all night and needed someone to hold him constantly. Breastfeeding was also fierce. Jiang Yingxiu was bitten and bleed many times.

She feels more and more that life is hopeless and has no end. Every day she stays in the big house and looks at her daughter who keeps crying. She becomes more and more dull, and her brain starts to fail. What are you doing, I can't remember the next second.

She also started to lose her hair frantically, forcing herself to eat food that was good for her children but she didn't like at all. In the reflection of the clean and transparent glass, what she saw was an extremely bad version of herself.

Jiang Yingxiu couldn't control her emotions and often cried and screamed. When he came home, Jiang Yingxiu always had to clean up herself decently. When she faced him, she always said that it was okay, I was fine, don't worry - he actually believed it.

Why are you so happy when you are not married, but only torture and pain after marriage?

Jiang Yingxiu couldn't understand.

She herself doesn't know what happened to her. She is obviously a very quiet girl, but she has become like this. She feels that if she continues, she will really become a lunatic.

She was afraid that day would come, so she was in a panic all day long, and when she found that Fu Dang had a lipstick mark on his shirt, a long hair in his pocket, a woman would answer when he called... This series of After the incident, the last fluffy straw finally crushed her completely.

Jiang Yingxiu committed suicide by swallowing sleeping pills. She has been insomnia since she gave birth to her daughter, but because she has to breastfeed, she cannot take medicine, so she often wears two huge dark circles under her eyes and looks extremely haggard. After her daughter was weaned at the age of one, she received sleep aids from the doctor.

The medicine was effective at first, but later it was completely ineffective, Jiang Yingxiu didn't take it, and put them all away.

And then swallowed it all at once. This time, she finally fell into a long sleep as she wished, and she would never wake up because of her daughter's crying, nor would she feel sad because of self-loathing, and she would never miss Fu Dang again.

No one can criticize her anymore for being a bad mother, a bad wife, a lunatic who has too many good days and doesn't know how to enjoy it.

After Jiang Yingxiu's death, Fu Dang never remarried. Even if there were as many women who adored him as the crucian carp who crossed the river, he was not interested in them.

Slowly, people changed. As he became richer and more famous, his parents began to worry that leaving such a large fortune to his daughter would be equivalent to leaving it to outsiders. His sister felt that He can get a share of the pie even if he has a son. His parents-in-law are afraid that he will suffer a loss if he remarries and has a son and granddaughter. The family relationship gradually began to change beyond recognition. Only then did Fu Dang realize that he had lost the most precious thing.

He is undoubtedly in love with Jiang Yingxiu, otherwise he would not have tried so hard to look like a person, so that no one would say that she married the wrong person. In fact, people didn't say that she married the wrong person, but started to talk about her bad. Was this what Fu Dang wanted at first?

Isn't it?

He wants her to be happy, not to slowly turn this marriage into a grave, trapping his loved ones in it.

For many years after Jiang Yingxiu's death, Fu Dang lived quite peacefully. He didn't act like he was in pain at all. He also thought that he might have come out. Has the pain gone away?

It wasn't until he got older that he realized that love didn't disappear, it was just overshadowed by his cowardice and avoidance.

He couldn't fall in love with anyone other than Jiang Yingxiu, just like he spent the rest of his life in remorse.

"Fu Dang? Is that you? Why are you sitting in the living room at night?"

The soft voice of a woman came from behind, Fu Dang slowly turned her head back, and with a snap, the light in the living room was turned on, and a young woman wearing a nightgown with a bulging belly was standing behind him, because the light was on The night light, dimly lit, made her look good. "Don't sit in the living room. It will be bad to wake up Mom and Xiaoxia later. Go back to the room."

She thought about it for a while, and then asked: "Is it because I'm not sleeping well, or I'm talking in my sleep, so you can't fall asleep? Why don't we sleep in separate rooms, then——"

She stopped before she finished speaking, because Fu Dang rushed over and hugged her tightly.

She was standing at the entrance of the living room, and he was sitting on the sofa, but when she spoke, he really rushed over, put his hands on the back of the sofa, turned over the sofa, and suddenly She hugged her so tightly that Jiang Yingxiu felt a little pain. "Fu Dang, take it easy... I hurt."

Fu Dang heard the words and relaxed a little, but still hugged her tightly, so tightly that Jiang Yingxiu even forgot when was the last time he hugged her like this, because he was too busy and she was pregnant again , The mother-in-law said that you can't hug and hug during pregnancy, it will collide with the child, so the two who have been together for less time have no physical contact, and they are not hugged by him. She doesn't know how much she misses her husband's arms.

Fu Dang still hugged her tightly and refused to let go. Jiang Yingxiu patted him on the back and he refused to let go. She was helpless: "What's the matter with you? Are you in trouble at work? You can follow me. Say it? Although I don't understand, I will listen carefully."

The corners of Fu Dang's eyes were wet. At this time, she was actually in a wrong mood, but she never showed it in front of him, she always smiled at him, obviously she was very uncomfortable - he is like this, worthy of to be her husband?

"Fu Dang? Xiuxiu? What are you doing at night?"

Mother Fu was awakened when she heard the movement outside. She got up wearing clothes and saw that her son was holding her pregnant daughter-in-law and didn't let go. She hurriedly stepped forward to pull the two away, and scolded: "You Look at you, what are you doing at night? I have let you two sleep in separate rooms, so that if you come back late, you will not disturb Xiuxiu, you can sleep well, and you have to go to work tomorrow! Xiuxiu is also , why are you so ignorant?"

Fu Dang put his arms around his daughter-in-law and avoided his mother's hand. He raised his eyes. In his memory, all he could remember was the greedy look of his mother when he finally distributed the family property. He said lightly, "Wake up you. Sorry?"

Jiang Yingxiu poked Fu Dang desperately with her fingers, meaning to let him go. It's so bad to be seen by her mother-in-law. When Fu Dang goes to work tomorrow, she may be scolded again. She doesn't want to split up with him. sleep!

Mother Fu looked at the time: "It's so late, what are you tossing about? Xiuxiu can't stay up late when she's pregnant, you—"

Before he finished speaking, he asked Fu Dang to interrupt: "Okay, you can go back to sleep, I don't need you to worry about my business."

Jiang Yingxiu quietly opened her eyes.

You must know that Fu Dang is a very filial son. His family conditions are not good. Fu's mother used to be an educated youth who went to the countryside. Later, she stayed in the village and got married and gave birth to two children, one is Fu Dang, One is Fu Xia, because she has read books, so she attaches great importance to her children's grades. When Fu Dang was admitted to the best university in the capital, she won a lot of honor for Fu's mother in the village.

It is very difficult for his parents in the countryside to support him in school. Since Fu Dang was admitted to university, he has been trying to make money by himself, and he has hardly reached out to his family. Knowing that he has worked hard, Jiang Yingxiu has always been an obedient and sensible girl. Friends, never want gifts or go to some luxurious places, even if she can afford it.

Fu Dang... When did you talk to your mother-in-law in such a tone? It sounded like a stranger, with no emotion at all.

Maybe it's because of pregnancy. Jiang Yingxiu is very sensitive to these small emotional changes, but Mother Fu didn't notice it. She was just about to say something. Next sentence: "You're exhausted from work, so stop nagging."

After returning to the room, Jiang Yingxiu carefully observed his face and asked tentatively, "What's wrong with you? Why did you talk to your mother like that just now?"

Fu Dang faced her with a different look. After Jiang Yingxiu left, he had a serious illness that was almost fatal. All he saw was his parents and his parents-in-law arguing about how to distribute the family property. It was very strange. At that time, he was neither disappointed nor angry. Both sides had wives, brothers and nephews, and they wanted to share as much as possible, but Fu Dang divided all the property into two, leaving half to his daughter and donating the other half.

The last thing he can't lose is her, which he understands too late.

"She is always in charge of the world, and I'm not a three-year-old child, so I don't need her to dictate my life."

Jiang Yingxiu listened and looked at him in disbelief. Fu Dang looked so cute with her round eyes open. He couldn't help kissing her. Only when he had a skin-to-skin kiss did he realize what he was how longing.

He was used to forbearance, and he was finally able to hold her in his arms again, almost out of control.

Jiang Yingxiu was kissed by him obediently, but when his hand became restless, he hurriedly stopped him: "No, no, no, this can't be..."

She was frightened by Fu Dang's appearance that she was about to eat her, and she panicked, but there was an indescribable joy, she wouldn't show him what she looked like now! My belly is bulging, my body has changed, and I have a lot of spots... It's ugly! She looked at herself in the mirror and was so anxious.

Fu Dang knew that this delivery had left a huge psychological shadow on Jiang Yingxiu. If he had returned earlier, he would not have chosen to let her get pregnant. "Well, I'm not going to do anything, go to sleep, I'll accompany you."

"You come back so late every day." Jiang Yingxiu muttered, "You said it yourself, stay with me, but I wake up every morning and you're already gone, why are you so busy."

She lived in the south with her grandmother for a few years when she was a child, and learned Wu Nong's soft language, occasionally with a tail sound, soft and needing special care.

Fu Dang kissed her forehead, "I lied to you this time as a puppy."

Although she may be criticized by her mother-in-law tomorrow morning, she said a lot to Fu Dang tonight and even kissed her. Jiang Yingxiu felt that she could be full of strength tomorrow.

Pregnant women are more lethargic. She fell asleep quickly, but occasionally her legs would cramp, so she didn't sleep well, and she often talked in her sleep. For Fu Dang, who was busy at the company, she went home and went to bed. He couldn't sleep well either, so in his last life, he slept next door with the comfort of his wife and mother.

He thought she really didn't want to sleep with him, but that wasn't the case. When she was vulnerable, how could she not need his care?

The big hand gently covered Jiang Yingxiu's calf, and a faint light flashed from the palm of her hand. Jiang Yingxiu's frowning brows slowly loosened while she was sleeping, and she slept more soundly.

Fu Dang just looked at her like that for a whole night.

The next morning, Jiang Yingxiu opened her eyes and was greeted by her husband's handsome face. She hurriedly covered her face and didn't show him, because she didn't wash her face or brush her teeth, so her image was too bad. After marriage, she changed from an elegant and beautiful school girl to a haggard and fat pregnant woman, but Fu Dang was more mature and handsome. It's really unfair. Looking closer, Fu Dang didn't even have pores on her face. Unlike her, she was pregnant. Her mother-in-law took away all the cosmetics and skin care products, saying that it was not good for the fetus.

She hasn't dressed up for a long time.

"Good morning."

Jiang Yingxiu didn't dare to look at him, and said glumly, "Good morning."

She tried her best to remember to go to the toilet, but Fu Dang stretched out her hand to help her. She was embarrassed. Although she got married as soon as she graduated, and had been in a relationship for several years before graduation, Jiang Yingxiu had been working hard to maintain her image in front of her lover. Don't let up at all.