The Hope You Gave Me: 68-leave

“Don’t look for him.” Min Hui said immediately, “This kind of rotten person is not worth your effort to deal with.”

He didn’t answer, just pursed his lips hard, and after a while he said, “When I was young, I had a bad temper, and people around me couldn’t stand me. Only Tian Tian let me, even so, sometimes She will be provoked. Once she starts to get angry, I will immediately calm down…” He smiled, his eyes soft, as if Su Tian was right in front of him, “Because I am afraid that she is really angry, that she will ignore her from now on. I, I will take the initiative to find her, and I will try my best to make her happy, because she is my only relative and concern.”

There is a picture of Su Tian on the tombstone, with a grin and a V-shaped face with a lot of thoughts…

“Do you know what it’s like to be completely dependent on one person?” he murmured again, “Other people, as long as they have quarreled with me once or twice at most, they will definitely turn their backs on me, and even if they don’t turn their faces, they should stay away. Only Su Tian is the one I know that no matter how many times I argue with her, every time I look back, she will forgive me and stand there with a smile and wait for me.”

Of course Min Hui understands that she has biological parents who love her.

“Tian Tian watched himself and his younger brother abducted, and he didn’t know that someone had given the medicine, so he kept telling me that my mother was too careless, and she lost her and her younger brother by focusing on her own sleep. Unreliable parents. At that time, I thought, I must become a reliable man, otherwise Tian Tian will not feel at ease with me… When I arrived in the United States, I have been working hard in this direction, and I have never been able to do so for a moment. She was slack, but she didn’t expect it to turn out like this: Among all her relatives, I was the most unreliable one! If I made the appointment on time, she would not—”

“—It’s not your fault,” she hurriedly interrupted after hearing his choked voice, “don’t blame yourself.”

“Of course it’s my fault!” He clenched his fists and gritted his teeth hard, “We once made an agreement with each other that when we grow up, if we can’t give the child a warm home, we simply don’t let him come. In this world. I work hard and earn money because I think, that’s the only way to give her and our children a lot of security, a lot of security… I was wrong! Don’t waste time on these things, earning There is no limit to money. I shouldn’t leave her at all, even if life is hard, we will suffer together, at least she doesn’t have to bear it alone, at least there is someone around to help her shelter from the wind and rain!”

“Don’t think so, Xin Qi, this is not Su Tian’s wish.”

“The day she met you was actually very close to the time we met, but she didn’t bring that T-shirt and enamel water glass, indicating that she probably didn’t plan to go to Yong’an Bridge to meet me. It must be . . . so disappointed in me.”

Min Hui also thought about this.

Su Tian disappeared on June 27th, and we met on July 7th, only ten days apart. Yongquan and Jiangzhou, one is in the north and the other is in the south, while the Mushui River is in the west of Hubei. It takes four hours by train from Mushuihe to Bincheng, and five hours by high-speed train from Bincheng back to Jiangzhou. From Jiangzhou to take the T-shirt and water cup that must be brought to Yongquan, it is equivalent to coming from the motherland. The southernmost ran to the northernmost. With Su Tian’s consumption habits, it is unlikely to take a plane, and it would take a day and a half to take the train. In the middle, she still has to stay in Bencheng to look for Jiajun… Of course, it’s still too late to talk non-stop. It’s just that if she is Su Tian, ​​even if she suddenly finds out that her younger brother is in Yukong, she points out that it is too close to meeting Xin Qi, so she will definitely bring the T-shirt and water cup with her, so as to save another train ride. Go back.

What exactly Su Tian planned at that time is no longer known.

“Of course she wants to see you! Most of the time she thought you were dead.” Min Hui comforted softly, “Didn’t she say in her diary that you might not live to be fifteen years old?”

“What she said in her diary was–anyway, she’ll wait for me for another three years! She must be desperate, three years have come, and she’s not going to wait. Either she thinks I’m dead, or I’ve changed my mind I can’t bear that she went to heaven with this idea, without giving me any chance to explain, I didn’t die or change my mind, I didn’t!”

Suddenly, he burst into tears.

She stared at him blankly, feeling a burst of sadness. She would rather be blamed fiercely by Xin Qi than to see him feel so sad and blame himself.

“She’s definitely going to see you,” she patted him on the shoulder, finding no more words of comfort, “there’s no doubt about that.”

“She worked various jobs in Jiangzhou: pushing mortar and lifting steel bars in the construction site, punching boards and shoe soles in a shoe factory, ironing clothes and buttoning in a garment factory… …In the end, she went to work in a foot bath shop, where she didn’t even have a window, and was often bullied by customers… This is her life, day after day, humble and numb… This kind of life, this kind of suffering was originally caused by I’ll take it-“

“No. The Su Tian I met was a lively and cheerful girl who was very friendly to strangers… She cared about me very much. Seeing that my hair was thin, she even recommended a hair mask to me. It’s not what you imagined at all. So sad and insensitive.”

“That’s what makes her different from me,” he smiled wryly. “No matter how painful it is, she still laughs, even with all her strength. And I can’t deceive myself like she does. You think we are Do you choose life? On the contrary, life chooses us. When you meet too many unreliable people, including your biological parents, you will learn to calculate and pay carefully when you are very young. Because You have never received unconditional love, every piece of your love is earned and cultivated carefully, and you are simply not generous in the face of feelings…”

He turned around, looked at her and said, “I’m afraid you can’t understand what I’m saying. It’s a kind of ‘carefulness’ that accumulates over time, every care, every joy is so precious, I need to hold it in the palm of my hand and hold it hard, and it will break if I am not careful. In the year we broke up, Su Tian will definitely let me go, because she knows my personality and my destructive power. If I encounter too many If you have no choice, you will become a bad person, and she definitely won’t. From my first fight, she said, I’m actually no different from those kids, and when I get stronger, I’ll bully others.”

“No.” Min Hui shook her head, “Su Tian let you go because she loves you, cares about your future, and encourages you to grow. She supports you in exploring new worlds and believes that you will eventually come back. Reunion. She loves you so much, so that’s why she does it.”

He doesn’t answer, looking at the tombstone, lost in thought.

After a while, seeing that he didn’t speak, Min Hui pointed to the empty space next to him and said, “Xin Qi, did you see that field?”

He looked up and nodded, there was a small tomb.

“I bought it.”

“You bought it?” He frowned.

“Yes. I’ll be buried here when I die. I’ll be your neighbor.”

“You won’t let us go in your next life?”

“Yes, I’ve spent with you.”

He looked at her with a strange look. For a long time, he didn’t speak. He just smiled bitterly and said, “It’s late, let’s go.”

The two left the cemetery together and came to the parking lot outside the gate.

“Are you going straight home?” Xin Qi asked.

“Yes.”

“I’ll take it to you.”

“No, it’s very convenient to call a taxi.” She took out her mobile phone and clicked on the taxi app.

“It’s also convenient for me to send you.”

“No need,” she smiled, “Xin Qi, I’ve decided on Moveon, let’s start now.”

He was slightly startled, then looked at her silently and raised his eyebrows: “What do you want to play, Min Hui?”

“Everything is irreversible, and there is only precious time left. I will cherish the blessing that Su Tian left me.” She looked at him with an empty face, “I’m glad you can If you think about it, it will be a relief for everyone. I wish you well, take care of yourself—” After saying that, he smiled and stretched out a hand, “I hope that all the lost will come back in another way.”

She shook his hand vigorously, then turned her back and lit a cigarette, then walked to the shade of a tree and smoked it leisurely.

He glanced at her, stepped into his car, flashed the headlights, and left quickly.

Twilight closes, and the afterglow of the setting sun falls from the trees.

The car she was waiting for didn’t arrive. Min Hui smoked two cigarettes in a row. Her mood went up and down, and she didn’t know whether it was light or heavy.

Pretending to be chic, she’s not good at it.

***

Bencheng has a lot of rain in autumn. It’s not heavy rain, and there’s no thunder. It’s just a few days in a row.

The GS2.0 project led by Min Hui has entered the final stage of system architecture and database design. Guanchao International is indeed a leader in the industry. Its strength and resources are several orders of magnitude higher than that of Bai’an Hi-Tech. Cheng Qirang asked Min Hui to upgrade and expand the original design in an all-round way. Intellectually challenging and intense work. After the merger, Min Hui hadn’t been so devoted to the project for a long time, so when she fixed the last round of bugs, she was shocked to find that she hadn’t seen her son for two weeks.

After leaving the cemetery, Xin Qi never looked for Min Hui, nor did Min Hui take the initiative to look for him. During this period, she regularly went to Xin Qi’s apartment to visit her son, and she also went back on time, without any delay. It was either the nanny or Yunlu who received her, and Xin Qi himself never showed up. Asking Yunlu is also vague. He only said that Xin Qi has been very busy recently, but no matter how busy he is, he always finds time to accompany his son every day. The “quality time” between father and son is definitely not less than three hours. There were times when I couldn’t walk away, so I just took my son, Yunlu, and the nanny on a business trip.

Min Hui didn’t take it too seriously. She knew that Xin Qi was reliable, and as long as it was handed over to him, there was nothing to worry about.

It just so happened that she was also busy, and Xin Qi was almost on official business trips in the past two weeks, and Su Quan was also by her side, so she never saw each other. Su Quan was already able to take pictures with his father’s mobile phone, and kept uploading the photos to the album shared by the three of them. Min Hui often went to see them. The background was either Disney or a museum, or a zoo or Sea World. His son looked elated. Father and son had a great time.

Are women really emotional animals? She was very skeptical and found that she was not as described in emotional novels. As long as she was a mother, she would think about her children all the time, and she would not think about food or dinner and worry about it every day.

Maybe it’s because a single mother has been working for a long time, or she is struggling to cope with too many things. Now she finally has a full time at her disposal, and her life becomes extraordinarily easy. As long as she does not work, her body and mind are in a Highly vented state. After get off work, either learn Sanda with Yin Xu, go to supper with colleagues, or play cards and gossip with Cao Mu. In short, I can play as long as I want, go home at any time, and it is no problem to play games all night.

Zhou Ruji heard that she was going to turn the page, and introduced two young doctors to her: “I know your taste, these two are doctors who studied in Germany. The key is to love to play games…”

But it was disrespectful, so Min Hui had to meet each other and went to a bar with one of them. She had a good impression of the two boys, but when it came to the child, they all said that they didn’t mind the second marriage, but hoped that the child would live with the father in the future.

Uh-No.

The next day Min Hui told Cao Mu about what happened to Cao Mu, and Cao Mu slapped the table: “I said earlier, I have a ready-made one! It’s my junior brother, surnamed Lu, who used to teach at Huaqing University, but later went to sea. Opened a technology company, also engaged in AI, and made autonomous driving software. The business is quite good. Like you, he has been divorced once, but has no children. He is a little older, but he is very stable and understands fun. , chased me back then, if I hadn’t been fascinated by Yin Xu, I would have married him.”

“Are you handsome?” asked Min Hui, who was Yan Control.

“Can I like him if he’s not handsome? Of course he’s handsome, but he’s not handsome like an athlete.

Min Hui thought for a while, then nodded: “Okay. Ask him if he doesn’t mind if I have a child and may live with him in the future.”

“I don’t think he’ll mind, but to be conservative, ask first.”

There is a quick reply that they don’t mind.

The two of them made an appointment to eat sashimi and chatted with each other. Mr. Lu was quite complacent about his hardware, but not arrogant enough to talk about it. He was very interested in Min Hui’s research. People have a great conversation professionally. If he can stay in Huaqing University, he must be a scholar, but his temper is very gentle, he pays attention to listening to Min Hui’s point of view, and nods in agreement from time to time. He is not a self-centered person.

After dinner, Mr. Lu proposed to go to a famous dessert shop nearby to eat cake. Min Hui said that he was tired and wanted to go home to rest, but he did not ask for his contact information. Everyone understands that this is a euphemism that doesn’t make sense. Mr. Lu was stunned for a moment, and he naturally heard the meaning of shirk. Looking back on the conversation just now, he didn’t know where he was wrong, and immediately said that he would not force it, but politely asked: “It’s alright, in fact, when I saw you, I felt very familiar. Yes, have we met before?”

“Never seen.”

“Well, it’s a pity.” He shook hands with her generously. “However, it’s an honor to meet you.”

“Me too.”

The two shook hands and said goodbye. Min Hui said that she would like to stroll around the neighborhood, so Mr. Lu had to drive away. She was about to move when her phone dinged, and a text message from Zhou Ruji came: “Are you on Jinhu Street?”

She then remembered that when she lived with Zhou Ruji in the past, they could share their traces on her mobile phone. Later, they separated and did not delete this function. Because Su Quan was often sick, and it was difficult to register at the hospital, she often went to Ru Ji to go through the back door, so she needed to know his whereabouts.

“Yes.”

“Cao Mu said you were on a blind date? What’s the situation? Is there any drama?”

“No play. Just finished.”

“Don’t be discouraged, keep looking.” He said, “I happen to be nearby and want to go to the movies without company. Let’s go together?”

“OK.”

After Zizhu’s death, Ru Ji’s mood was not despondent, but she was also depressed and unhappy. It happened that Min Hui was unhappy because of Su Tian’s death and Xin Qi’s rage. The two unlucky **** hugged together for warmth. They often got together, either fried chicken or skewered. Watching movies was the only common hobby, and they occasionally went together. Sometimes it was a cartoon, Min Hui took Su Quan over as well, and the three of them watched it together, as if returning to the good old days of a family of three.

But she knew she couldn’t go back.

There is a Su Tian between her and Xin Qi. There was also a purple pearl between her and Ru Ji. Both men used to treat her well, as well as Su Quan, if not for historical factors, she was not lacking in competitiveness, but unfortunately she was not the first… Following Ruji, she felt boring because life was the same. Following Xin Qi, she will panic because life has changed too much.

The movie is the latest Hollywood horror movie. It has no big-name actors, and the plot is compact. Forest District. Min Hui got out of the car and walked to the gate. She took out her mobile phone and saw that there was a missed call on it. It was Xin Qi, so she quickly dialed back.

“Hi, Xin Qi,” she said apologetically, “I was watching a movie just now and my phone was on silent.”

“Hmm.” The voice over there was languid.

“Anything?”

“Your son wants to see you.”

“Oh? Now? Are you at home? I’ll be right over.” She thought he was still on a business trip.

“I brought him here to find you. You didn’t call back for a long time. He fell asleep in the car,” he said.

There were many cars parked on the road to the left, and one of the lights flashed. She walked over, just in time to see Xin Qi getting out of the car with Su Quan in his arms.

He looked as if he had just come back from the negotiating table, in a suit and leather shoes, his hair was neatly combed, but Su Quan in his arms was wearing only a bear pajamas, bare feet, wrapped in a blanket, his hands He hugged Xin Qi’s neck tightly.

“Give me a hug.” Min Hui took it and held it in her hands, she couldn’t help but said, “It’s so heavy, I can’t hold it anymore.”

“I’ll do it.” He took it again.

The child turned around in the hands of the two people. With such a big movement, he didn’t wake up. He lay in Xin Qi’s arms and continued to sleep soundly.

The two walked under the street lamp, and Min Hui touched her son’s face and said, “Are you on a business trip recently? I think you were in Shanghai yesterday?”

“Just got back this afternoon.”

“If you’re really busy, just leave it all with me and I can take care of him.”

“No matter how busy you are, there is still time to take care of the child,” he said, squinting at her.

Because of today’s blind date, Min Hui put on makeup very seriously. The outside was a white wool coat, and the inside was the magnolia flower lace dress that Xin Qi gave her. The weather was very cold, and the coat was originally tightly covered, because just after eating Mala Tang, my whole body was hot, so I loosened the belt.

“What event did you attend and dress so formally?” he asked.

“Blind date.”

He frowned slightly: “Do you have to wear the clothes I gave you?”

She said in surprise, “Can’t you?”

He looked at her seriously and shook his head slowly: “No, absolutely not.”

When a cold wind blew, she subconsciously gathered up her coat and fastened her belt: “Okay, pay attention next time.”

“How about that man?” he asked again.

“Who?”

“Your partner.”

“Oh, no drama. It was introduced by Cao Mu. As soon as we met, I remembered that he was my freshman math teacher and taught me linear algebra.”

“Isn’t this good?” Xin Qi looked at her happily, “Everyone is a scholar.”

“He gave me a very low grade in that class, and I still can’t forget it.”

“How low is it?”

“89.”

“That’s low too?”

“I got full marks in all of my exams in this class, just because I took allergy medicine in class, fell asleep accidentally, and snored, he said I was deliberately despising him. I tried to argue, he said I talked back, just avenged my personal revenge and deducted my overall rating.”

He looked at her and couldn’t help laughing: “You don’t still hate him, do you?”

“Don’t hold grudges, and definitely don’t marry. In short, I can’t bear it.”

“Can’t bear to watch movies with him?”

“I watched a movie with Zhou Ruji.”

He was stunned for a moment, and it took a long time for him to react: “So you and Zhou Ruji are also dating?”

“It doesn’t count with him. He’s been in a bad mood lately and isn’t interested in such things.”

“If interested, would you follow him?”

“Yes. It can be considered.” Min Hui said seriously, “Zhou Ruji is a good person, and Su Quan is also good. In the future, the three of us…”

“Min Hui, stop with me!” He suddenly became angry, “What the **** are you three?”

“We used to live together for four years without any quarrel or quarrel. Now that Zizhu has passed away, I think there is hope for us to get back together.”

Xin Qi looked up at the sky, and after a while, he said with a sneer, “Min Hui, if you want to find a stepfather for my son, I must agree first.”

“Why, Xin Qi? Why should I listen to you?”

He bit, his face flushed: “Zhou Ruji can’t do it. He abandoned your mother and son.”

“Nothing, the divorce was initiated by me—”

“That won’t work either. Good horses don’t eat grass.”

Min Hui shrugged: “Otherwise, you can find one for me? As long as you like it, I can do it.”

He glared at her, and his anger came again: “When did you become a man? What’s the use of me? You have to see it yourself.”

“I trust your vision.”

“…”

“Xin Qi, I have entrusted you with the important affairs of my life. You have to be careful, try to finalize it at the end of the year, get a certificate during the Spring Festival, and I will give birth to a sister for Su Quan.”

“…”

“Anything else to say?” She looked at her watch. “I have to go in.”

He suddenly changed the subject: “Can you resign?”

“Why?”

“I’m afraid Cheng Qirang will bully you.”

“He’s busy right now, so he doesn’t have time to talk to me, relax, I’ll be fine.” She pursed her lips and patted him on the back, “Besides, Jiajun and the others are doing news investigations, and they will soon be There’s a bombshell waiting for him, and he won’t have a good time.”

He looked at her silently and said softly: “Min Hui, resign tomorrow, be obedient.”

She shook her head firmly: “No.”

He sighed, turned and got into the car, which quietly left.

The next day, Min Hui went to work on time. As usual, she stayed in her office to write programs. When it was time for lunch, Cao Mu took her to the snack bar downstairs to eat Vietnamese noodles, and whispered: “You have a morning. What are you doing?”

“Write a program.” Min Hui blew the heat from the bowl and squeezed the lime juice into the Hefen soup, “What else can I do.”

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