Doomsday Wonderland: Honest things are always uncomfortable

From March to more than half of April, the doomsday updates basically consisted of three days of fishing and two days of drying the net. The pauses lasted for a long time, and the updates were also very short.

Although no one talks or urges me, I am more aware than anyone else of this slowness in updating, and I know it is very irresponsible.

Besides the reason for digging through old articles to find pitfalls, there is actually another reason that I have been unwilling to say... But I have been looking at the updates of my own combs and Lingling in the past two days, and I feel that you may be the most There are a group of people who are qualified to know, so although it is very difficult for me to open up, I am still ready to tell the truth.

There is so much foreshadowing, but to put it bluntly, there is only one sentence. I experienced the first depression episode in my life in March. I was completely caught off guard and was sunk. I had no power to resist. It probably lasted for two or three weeks. I don't even know what happened to me, because I have never experienced it before and I don't understand.

It’s not that it’s particularly hard and heartbreaking, although there are moments like this, but most of the time, all my energy seems to have been sucked dry; the second batch of Shanghai greens all died as soon as they sprouted, and the two pots of ferns all died. They were all yellow because there was no way I could get up from the couch to water them. If you don’t want to eat, you won’t sleep for a day or two in a row, and then sleep for a day or two in a row. Too lazy to open my mouth to speak, unable to concentrate~IndoMTL.com~It can’t be more than two lines, as if everything in my brain has been turned into pieces, my brain is a chaos of constant noise, tearing and confrontation, even the minimum of taking care of myself on a daily basis, such as It is difficult to guarantee washing your face and hair, eating and drinking water.

What is that feeling? My skin is my prison. Even if I suffocate, I can’t break out. (Does this sentence sound familiar?) Everyone’s life is a **** tailor-made for them. I am here. In my custom hell.

I don’t even know how I wrote the updates during this period, because any attempt to focus on something will be torn apart by the chaotic thoughts like a storm. I am no longer myself at all. I am like a piece of grass being beaten by distracting thoughts and darkness. If I am not careful, I will be uprooted.

I don’t know what the trigger is. It may be the epidemic and subsequent effects.

Actually, some readers seemed to have discovered it, but I didn’t say anything at the time. I'm very reluctant to talk about it because I would feel a little ashamed, as if I had done something wrong...I also know that this kind of thinking itself is not healthy.

At present, I may have used 693 words to make you unhappy. This is not my intention. Authors who write entertainment articles make readers frustrated. Isn’t this a shame in the industry?

I have contacted the doctor several times, but since the business has not reopened yet, I have no choice but to help myself at home. I have tried many methods. It seems that it is starting to have some effect recently. The storm in my mind is gradually calming down. Signs are up.

What I find most helpful is meditation. Don’t laugh. I used to think that the difference between meditation and sleeping is that one has music and the other does not...

But I started with MindfulnessPractice, and I felt that after five minutes of practice my mind seemed clearer. Then I looked at it again and realized that this is meditation, right? And the meditation is getting longer and longer, from five minutes at the beginning to thirty minutes a day now. After finishing it, I still feel that I am still unsatisfied and want to have another bowl... In the long run, I feel that it helps a lot.

So don’t worry about me. If anyone has similar problems, please feel free to message me privately and let’s work together. I also hope to be able to restore myself to a state where I can write updates as soon as possible.

Next I want to talk about meditation.

[The following content may cause controversy. People under the age of 21 are asked to read with caution under the guidance of parents or professionals. People over the age of 21 who have opinions are asked to give up reading]

I am very interested in the field of human beings changing their mental states, especially those involving Psychedelics, so I read the popular HowtoChangeYourMind immediately. When I was reading it, I noticed that there was a piece of information that said that the brain activities and areas of monks who are good at meditation are highly similar to the brain activities and areas of people who use Psychedelics. They are both daily. A place in the human brain that is not activated.

Of course I had not started practicing meditation at that time, but I had experience using Psychedelics (I am using it legally, I will not report anything illegal); now that I have tried both, I have to say , the user experience is really similar.

There is a StoneApe theory, which holds that this group of apes, the ancestors of humans, was essentially no different from other apes. So why did this group of apes begin to evolve into humans? It was because they were in the process of a great migration. , I found mushrooms on the road... After eating mushrooms, brain circuits that could not be activated normally were activated, and the possibility of human evolution began to arise. ~IndoMTL.com~ I am particularly fascinated by this theory, so I think it is true, and nothing others say will work)

Of course, I am not advising everyone to eat mushrooms, nor can I buy mushrooms. What I mean is, isn’t there something healthier and better for the mind, which is meditation practice. (Yes, I am selling Amway. Who else can you find besides me who can buy goods for free these days?)

After meditating, my personal experience is that the entire spirit and brain become particularly clear and sharp, and even the field of vision seems to be sharply sharpened, similar to the brain version of wearing glasses for myopia for the first time. Concentration has become much easier, and understanding the meaning of words has become faster and easier. To use an analogy, it is like a computer being wound up (.

Not only for people with depression, long-term meditation has a positive effect. I think it is worth a try for people who are stressed, tired, or simply just want to have a better experience.

Although Doomsday is an entertainment novel, we all know each other because we are destined (not to mention spending money), so I also hope that I can share more things with you in my spare time of updating, and see different worlds together. Experience a better life experience.

(So can you forgive me for my incompetence in updating?)