Awakening: Notice

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I ’m not born, I ’m old.

I am an orphan. Maybe it is the result of patriarchism. Maybe it is the product of male love and irresponsible love.

Tetsano picked me home.

That year, when he implemented the policy, he returned to the city from the countryside. He saw me by the garbage dump at the station. A beautiful, quiet little baby girl was surrounded by many people. He stepped forward, and the baby girl smiled brightly at him. .

He gave me a home and gave me a beautiful name, Tao Yan. Later, he said, I smiled at that time, and was worthy of the peach blossoms.

Tetsuno’s life is extremely tragic. His father * was a returning scholar, but he did not escape the cultural catastrophe. Both resentment and renunciation gave up. Tetsuno was naturally not immune. He was assigned to the countryside and fell in love with him for many years. Girlfriend Yan Yan splits. He stayed there until he picked me up when he returned to the city at the age of 35.

I call Tetsuo my uncle.

My childhood is not too unpleasant in my memory. Just remove one thing.

When I was in school, there were a few naughty male classmates in the class scolding me for “wild seed”. I went home crying and told Tetsuno. The next day Zhe Ye specially picked me up from school and asked the boys: Who said she was a wild seed? When the little boy saw Tallino, who was tall and burly, he did not dare to say a word, and Tessino sneered: Whoever said that next time, let me hear what I heard. Someone muttered that she was either born to you or a wild seed. Zhe Ye held my hand and smiled back: But I was more precious than her own daughter. Don’t believe which one came out to show me, whose clothes are as pretty as hers? Whose shoes and bags look better than hers? She drinks milk and eats bread every morning. What do you eat? The children were suddenly discouraged.

Since then, no one has ever called me wild. When I grow up, I always laugh when I think about it.

My life is much luckier than the average orphan.

My favorite place is the study. Under the room full of books, under the bright large window is Tetsuo’s desk. When there is the sun, the silhouette of Xuan Ang, where he concentrates on his work, looks like a backlit painting. I always look for books by myself, and when I find them, I lie on the sofa. After a while, Tetsuo would look back at me, his smile was more gentle than the sunlight outside the window in winter. Seeing tired, I lay on his shoulders and watched him drawing pictures and writing quietly.

He laughs: When I grow up, do me?

I poked: No, it was so tanned and dirty.

Oh, I forgot to say that Tetsuo is a construction engineer. But the wind and sun did not harm his appearance at all. He is always polite and personable.

On and off, it is not that no woman wants to enter Tetsuno’s life.

When I was eight years old, once, Tetsuo almost wanted to talk to a woman about marriage. The woman is a teacher, smart and beautiful. I don’t know why I don’t like her. I always think that the smile on her face is stuck. Tetsuo is there. She smiles sweetly and tenderly at me. If she isn’t there, the laughter will disappear. I’m afraid of her. One day I was reading a picture book on the balcony. She asked me: What about your parents? Haven’t seen you once? I stayed and looked at her without knowing what to say. She whispered twice and said, this child, silly, no wonder they don’t want you. I froze, and suddenly Tetsuo Tieqing came over with his face in his hand, took my hand, and went back to the room without saying anything.

I cried in the quilt alone at night. Zhe Ye came in and hugged me and said, Don’t be afraid, don’t cry.

Later, I no longer see the woman who came to our house.

Later, I heard that Tetsuo’s good friend Qiu Fei asked him, “Why is it good again?” Tetsuno said that this woman had a bad heart and married her, and she would not have a good life in the future. Qiu Fei said, you still can’t forget Ye Lan. At the age of eight, I remembered the name firmly. When I was older, I knew that Ye Lan was Tetsuo’s girlfriend.

We have always been dependent on each other. Tetsuno handles everything well, including making my puberty smooth and healthy.

After I was admitted to the university, because the school was far away from home, I lived in the school and only returned home on weekends.

Tetsuo sometimes asks me: Is there a boyfriend? I always smile. There are a few good boys in the school who like to turn around me, but none of them are pleasing to the eye: A is tall and handsome, with helpless third grades; B has good homework and good eloquence, but his appearance is ordinary; The homework looks good, but the temperament looks like a reckless man …

I rarely talk to male students. In my eyes, they are both childish and superficial, and they have too little time to show the best side in front of people. They are too scary and unsteady.

On the 20th birthday, Tetsuno gave me a ruby ​​ring. This kind of sporadic jewellery has long been bought for me by Tetsuo. His statement is: The girl is old and needs a few decent things to decorate. After eating, he accompanied me to the shopping mall. What I like, I bought immediately.

After going back to school, I found that my classmates liked to talk about me behind the scenes. I don’t mind either. Because of his background, he has become accustomed to talking. Until one day a good female classmate held me in private: They said you have a boyfriend who is much older than you? I’m baffled: who said that? She said: It is said that several people saw it. You went shopping with him and it was very affectionate! It’s no wonder that you don’t look down on these poor boys. It turned out to be Brother Kong Fang! I thought for a moment, my face blushed slowly, and after a while I laughed: they misunderstood.

I didn’t explain. Sitting and reading a book quietly, the heat on his face did not fade for a long time.

Go home on weekends and clean up as usual. Tetsuno’s room was clean. He wore a cardigan on the edge of the bed. It was a beige brown, bottle collar. When I bought it, it was a gray chicken heart collar. I picked this one. At that time, Tetsuo said with a smile, okay, it’s up to you. It seems that Xiaoyi thinks I’m old and wants me to be younger.

I folded the dress slowly, smiling and thinking about trivial chores.

The next time I found that Tetsuo was in a very good state of mind. He walked lightly, and occasionally heard him sing some songs. It was a bit like when I was admitted to college. I wonder.

I received Tetsuo’s phone call on Friday asking me to go home early and go out for dinner with him.

He shaves and changes clothes. I’m suspicious: someone introduced you to your girlfriend? Zhe Ye laughed: I’m an old man, what girlfriend do you talk about, it’s your Uncle Qiu, and an old friend who is also many years old, just call her Auntie Ye a while.

I know, it must be Yelan.

Zheye Lu told me that through Qiu Fei some time ago, he had contacted Ye Lan. Her husband died a few years ago. It is OK to see you again this time. If there is no accident, they are going to get married.

I inadvertently responded, and gradually felt that my feet became cold, and slowly spread upwards.

When I arrived at the hotel, I looked at Ye Lan objectively: she was slightly fat, but not bloated. There was still a young charm in her eyebrows. Compared with women of the same age, she definitely had an advantage. But standing with Ying Ting’s Tetsuo, she looked much older.

She treats me well and is very kind.

I came to Jia Zheye and asked me: What do you think of Aunt Ye? I said: You’re all planning to get married, of course I said yes.

I opened my eyes and fell asleep until early in the morning.

I am sick when I return to school. He had a fever and was reluctant to take the lesson. He felt heavy-headed and finally fell in the classroom.

When I woke up, I was lying in the hospital, hanging a bottle, and Tetsuya was sitting next to reading a book.

I smile tiredly: Where am I? Zhe Ye nervously touched my head: finally woke up, the virus turned into pneumonia,

You child, always careless. I laugh: if you want to get sick, what can you do to be careful?

Tetsuno is in the hospital except for work. Whenever he wakes up from a drowsiness, those who search for him immediately need to see immediately to be at ease. I heard him and Ye Lan talk on the phone: I’m sick, I haven’t been free these days, I’ll contact you when she’s fine.

I smiled bleakly. If I was ill and could keep him guarding me every day, then why do n’t I get sick.

I stayed in the hospital for a week before returning home. Zhe Ye put a sofa in front of my room and lay on it at night. He got up and visited me with a little movement.

I remember that when I was a little bit smaller, my crib was placed in Tetsuno ’s room. I went to the bathroom in the middle of the night and groped for myself. The lamp said: 夭夭 Be careful. I didn’t sleep until I went to elementary school.

Ye Lan bought a bunch of flowers and fruits to visit me. I thank her politely. Her dishes are delicious, but I can’t eat them.

I lay back in the room early.

I dream. Dreamed that Tetsuo and Ye Lan were finally married. They were both very young. Ye Lan looked very beautiful in a white veil, and I was so big as a flower girl. Tetsuno smiled happily, but just didn’t look back at me, I clearly smelled the fragrance of lilies floating on the bridal bouquet … I sat up sharply and woke up. After a long while, he lay back again, closing his eyes in despair.

I heard Tetsuo walk in in the dark, and then the little lamp on the bed turned on. He sighed: What dream? Crying so much. I pretended to sleep, but my tears were like dripping faucets, dripping down my ears. Tetsuno’s warm fingers scratched those tears again and again, but couldn’t stop.

This disease has been around for more than ten days. When healed, Tetsuo and I lost a lot of weight. He said: Let’s go home and live, so many people in the school have a dormitory, and the air is not good.

He drives me on a motorcycle every day.

His face was close to his back, always happy and sad.

Ye Lan has never been to our house again. After a long, long time, I was convinced that Ye Lan, like that female teacher, was in the past.

I graduated successfully and got a job.

I live happily and peacefully, without sidelines, only me and Tetsuo. Since I can’t say anything, it’s good to just keep the status quo.

But Heaven refuses to give me such long-lasting happiness.

Tetsuo fainted on the construction site. Doctors diagnosed with advanced liver cancer. I was anxious, but still knew and asked the doctor calmly: How many days are left? The doctor said: One year, maybe a little longer.

I picked Tetsuno home. He didn’t stay in bed. I went to work during the day and asked for one hour of care. At noon and at night, I took care of him myself.

Tetsuno said with a smile: Look, it bothers me. It should have been a date with a boyfriend.

I also laugh: boyfriend? That’s not just about everything.

Dinner and I went out for a walk every day. I held his arm. Except for being thinner than in the past, he is still tall and handsome. In the eyes of outsiders, this is not a picture of heaven and earth, only I can see the cruel reality under the beautiful appearance. I was sober and sad, and I could clearly see that the last days of Tetsuo and I disappeared quickly every day.

Teno is very quiet and lives as usual ~ IndoMTL.com ~ Design drawings. Hourly workers said that he spends most of his time in the study every day.

I like library more and more. After dinner, always make a cup of tea, sit opposite Tetsuo, play chess, and play poker.

Then help Tetsuo organize his information. He stipulated that there was a pile of things to keep me from moving. I’m curious. Finally one day he peeked while he was away.

That’s a few big diaries.

“I have two front teeth. I will pick her up from work and shake me up and ask me to hug.”

“On my tenth birthday, I wished that Uncle Tetsuno would always be young. I am pregnant, my sister-in-law, she is really a flower of my lonely career.”

“Sent me to college today, and she took the lead in everything, and I was surprised that she had grown into a beautiful girl, and I was dying. I hope her life will not be as lonely as me.”

“Qiu Fei told me about Ye Lan’s recent situation, but the meeting was not as enchanting as I expected. She is much older, although her elegance has not changed in her youth. She has not concealed that I still have a good impression on me.” >

“I pneumonia. I kept crying for my name in my sleepiness, but woke up only to tears. I was shocked. I didn’t expect that marrying Ye Lan would affect her so much.”

“When I came back to school, I felt chilly on my back. I took off my clothes and examined it, and found that it was so wet. Oh, this child.”

“The doctor announced that I have one year left in my life. I am not afraid, but alas, she is a big deal for me. After I die, how to make her healthy and happy life is my first consideration.”

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I held my diary and burst into tears. It turned out he knew, it turned out he knew.

In a few days, the stack of books will disappear. I know Tetsuo has dealt with it. He didn’t want me to know that he knew my mind, but he didn’t know that I already knew.

Tetsuno left in the spring of the second year. At the end of the day, he held my hand and said: I wanted to hand you in to a good boy, and watched him help you put on the ring before leaving, it was too late.

I smile. He forgot, my ring, he bought it for me when he was twenty.

He has a letter in the desk drawer with a few short sentences: oh, I’ve gone, you can miss me, but don’t think of me from time to time. You can live in peace and tranquility. . uncle.

I didn’t cry so dark.

Waking up in the middle of the night, I can still hear him say: 夭夭 Be careful.

During my study in the study room, I found a dusty earthenware pot in the corner of the cupboard. It was quaint and interesting. I took it out, washed it, and stayed there. Face: I am not born, I am old. At the same time hate not live, good day to day with the king.

At this time, my tears raged unbridled.